what a great day!!!

One of the best pieces of advice that a book ever gave me (excepting the Holy Koran, of course) was, strangely, in a Stephen King novel. It’s just these words that are repeating themselves in my mind again and again and again today…I guess they are all that relate to my situation somewhat and are maybe an attempt to explain something which I can’t quite figure out yet. 'There’s one thing you should know about the world--It don’t care…. It don’t hate us, but it don’t love us either…’(The Shining) The grammar is bad, the punctuation is all wrong, but so what? At least it can console me that one of the most brilliant (albeit sick) writers of the world can explain what I can and cannot expect from the world, even and especially a few people who call themselves my FRIENDS. All I want to say is; I did not expect a hug, I did not expect a kiss, or anything like that. But I did expect some acknowledgement of what took place yesterday. It was one of the biggest things that happened to me, and you…well, that’s all past mattering now. You don’t hate me, but you don’t care for me, either. But you DO care for the teat that you’re expecting from me. Wow…what layers of depth you have! I’m not angry…well, not very angry. But I AM very very hurt, very very depressed, and very very sad. It’s people like you who have given me such a face. The face that tells the whole world how hard it is for me to smile.